Every day it’s something new that I realize I’m missing see her do.  The Holidays kinda suck for me right now.  I won’t get into it, cause it just makes people cry…but I wish I could see like her open her first Christmas gift (if a 9 month old baby can even do that yet…) [...]

This is the coolest story! Even if you don’t agree with me on abortion, you must admit this would make you think twice too. Dreams are meaningful alright, and it’s amazing how God can work in people through them! And to think, this man is forgiven of all his sins (he converted, so I [...]

And every other day too!
I know you can’t read yet, but it wouldn’t be the best idea for me to post this if you could. So I’ll take advantage of the opportunity now, while your still such a little girl today!
Cause I am SO SO SO PROUD of you, and I can’t [...]

“Sweeter even than to have had the joy of caring for children of my own has it been to me to help bring about a better state of things for mothers generally, so that their unborn little ones could not be willed away from them.”
~ Susan B. Anthony, quoted in The American Feminist, Spring 1998 [...]

It’s a five part series, folks. I truly tried to condense it to the most crucial points, but without backing them up in detail….my claims would only be as good as Senator Obama’s.  Also I will try to stay off internal political debate here, because I just want to share how God convicted my heart [...]

Those weeks, days, then hours leading up to the adoption…are the most intense, over-emotional, scary, and confusing times, yet somehow they are also the most beautiful, peaceful, and cherished moments too.  I don’t know how they all fit in together, but they do.  When the birth mother and her child are just “talking” to each other, sometimes for hours and hours, it is the most beautiful scene to watch (but no one could ever watch though, because then it wouldn’t be just for them and lose it’s beauty)  In my case I would go over all of my dreams for her, and how much I loved her, during that time. Several times we would go over the “plan for her life” I had made and I’d tell her about each member of her new family and how much they loved her. I went over the “procedure” for adoption day and told her not to worry I’d have the prettiest pink outfit for her to wear to meet them (she just had to get her beauty sleep tht night.) Then I  told her…

After a comprehensive, fully biased search….I have determined she wins by a long shot! Her eyes seal the deal folks! Sorry I can’t show you any photos….you have to just take my word for it. (won’t ever risk her safety) But she shines like nothing I’ve ever seen before. If you look at her you have to smile for joy! Her sparkling eyes and bright smile could cheer anyone up instantly….even Joy Bahar. That’s talent!
I also declare today as….. the official “lets ALL be like CNN day!”

Ok, so my post earlier today, Thank God for Kids, has to follow up with this one.  After reading this please look at the video found in this post too.  Check out bornalivetruth.org for more info. If you disagree or I am wrong, please correct me.  i really would prefer to be wrong in this [...]

For all the birth mom’s of adoption out there!
Mark Schultz - Everything To Me - story behind the song

He just said it all

So below is a Continuation from the post last week about my purpose in life to change the image of birth mother’s and adoption.  I realize I can’t respond to every negative post on youtube about adoption, God, the Bible, and other issues…, because there are just not enough hours in the day. But it [...]

Subconscious post continued….(and some extra)
So some may think I’m just an idiot and was oblivious to my own body and reality…but that’s OK, then I’m an idiot with a healthy baby girl that completed another family!  I know in my heart that what God did was a blessing for me and even more so for [...]

I’ve always wondered the power our subconscious mind really has. I know it plays a role in our everyday lives, maybe more than we imagine it does, but how big is it really?  I mean how much data can it really store and how much of it is truth vs. fiction. [...]

Great article this morning by Charles R. Swindoll
Job 38:1–41
When God finally does speak, He answers Job out of a whirlwind. Suddenly, there He is! Wouldn’t it have been great for us to have been there? Whoosh! Lightning, loud thunder, mighty winds blowing dark clouds across the heavens, and out of nowhere God bursts on the [...]

I never thought about it much. I guess I always thought people would think I was crazy if I did say He did to anyone. I’m pretty sure last night my dreams were full of God speaking to me. I write my dreams down most of the time, because they are always so strange and [...]

God can handle it all; so let it all out. Tell Him all that’s in your heart. You never get over grief completely until you express it fully. Job didn’t hold back. And I admire him more now than when I first began the book.

Will I breathe again? My heart aches, my heart aches for you my little angel. I can’t breathe, I miss you so much. The pain I feel cuts so deep like a knife in my heart. I can feel you. You forever exist in my heart. This feeling in my heart is all I have [...]